Overwhelming emotional pain

When you need a hug

I am a person that enjoy being alone, no friends to hang out with, no friends to talk to whenever I feel so down. Going through a tough situation like this, away from home and family, I realize you definitely need someone who will listen to your story or just simply give you a comforting hug. Feelings become intense if it is not express. Day by day the negative feelings file up inside that may overflow at any point of time. Those days I was desperate of someone who can be trusted to listen and understand me. I made a wrong move when I tell all to the person who did it to me and expect him to understand and expect him to feel sorry of what he has done to me but it turned out the other way around. 

It was a very down moment, not easy to go through this situation alone and hopeless. I maybe look physically good but deep inside I’m slowly dying. I am keeping inside me all the negative emotions that I can't express because I have no one to turn to. It was overwhelming emotions that I almost couldn't handle and about to give up. My emotions taking over me. I was so focus on the negative feelings that I can't figure out what to do other than giving up. When I started my instagram page I posted my feelings randomly and that's where I feel lighter and I found out, I am not alone going through this situation. The warm messages I received it feels comforting and uplifting. I found some strength and courage.